Monday, June 12, 2006

A Half Life

This is still feeling much like a vacation. No husband, no car, very few of our things, and no sense of permanance for me or the kids right now. I am happy to be here spending time with my family but am starting to miss Trent very much now. I am feeling guilty that I am not there to help even though I don't know how much help I would really be. Trent does not show signs of stress often, but I can hear it in his voice and it is a helpless feeling to be far away from him.
I went and looked at our new house on Saturday. I don't love it and I'm glad we are only renting. Don't get me wrong, I am glad to have a nice new house to stay in. It seems to be a nice area. The cons are: It is pretty far east, I don't love the way it is set up, and the kids rooms seem tiny. I guess I had gotten pretty attached to my house and I will miss it. This new house does have a great master bathroom and walk in closet and is pretty close to Trent's parents and very close to his brother and his wife. They will be fun to hang out with and have BBQ's. I think I will like it much better once I see all of our stuff in it and can feel more at home. It will be nice to have lots of time to shop for a home we will really love and want to settle down in for a long time.
Some other things I wanted to mention. I heard a "heat advisory" from 10 am to 8pm for the next two days will be 112 degrees. Tucker thinks he wants to go outside all day until he goes out and after 5 minutes is ready to come back in. He is really loving spending time with my baby sister Claire (age 7), his grandparents, and "those 2 Chandlers" which is actually his cousins Chandler and Jackson. Charlotte is getting lots of attention and kisses and is showing off in all her cuteness.

6 comments:

Gina said...

I am sorry you don't LOVE your new place, but I guess that is to be expected for a temporary dwelling!

We'll probably be over helping Trent tonight. Don't worry. He is handling everything really well.

Did you check out my 100 things? I didn't hear from you.

LOVE YOUR GUTS!

Tori :) said...

It will get better. It always takes a while to feel like you're "home."
At least Tucker has common sense when it comes to heat. Taj wanted to be outside 24-7 in Texas- all drippin' sweat, face flushed red... He didn't care.

Emily said...

I can't tell you how hard I laughed about "those two Chandlers." Thanks.

Em said...

A strange half life with your flatmate Spike?

Abbie said...

I'm with Emily on the "those 2 Chandlers" thing. Absolutely hilarious.

diana rose said...

haha... welcome to mesa.

it'll get better, moving always depresses me. once i get settled i quickly get over it.