Wednesday, April 02, 2008

I feel like quitting

I am a total advocate of breastfeeding. I know it is not possible or practical for some people and I completely understand that. I do think that everyone should give it shot before discounting it, but hey, that's my opinion.
Anyhow, lately nursing has been so. . . unenjoyable. I think my milk supply isn't quite what it used to be, for starters. Henry will nurse anytime it is offered, he has never once turned me down, which makes me think he's not being fully satisfied. This makes me sad. He eats 2 jars of baby food a day and sometimes some baby cereal as well or some baby toast. I know he's not starving, but I wish I knew a magic trick to make him take formula. Even once a day would be a relief to me.
My b00bs hurt. Not only am I just sore from the amount of nursing, but Henry does some things that hurt too. He likes to pull away from my body while he nurses. Ouch. Why? He pushes his hands against me like he's pushing off, but stays latched on. Mean, huh? Then he also likes to pinch. Whatever arm of mine is supporting his head is being constantly pinched. No, not cute little soft love pinches. Hard, tiny little nails grabbing the smallest amount of skin as hard as possible pinches. I want to scream. Sometimes I do. I try to pin his arm in between my upper arm and torso, he escapes in seconds. His other hand is usually pretty harmlessly placed in my mouth for some reason. But on occasion he feels it needs to get in on the action and grabs my entire lower lip and yanks it as if trying to remove it from my face.
So there you have it. I am sick of nursing. I don't like it anymore. But can I stop? No. Maybe if my husband will actually take the kid for half a day so his only option is formula. Is that going to happen? In my dreams.

Doesn't he look so innocent?

13 comments:

Abbie said...

Hey Robin, I could really use your help here one Saturday. You know, packing and whatnot. The vacation wouldn't be for you, it'd be for me. You wouldn't be able to bring Henry. Do you think Trent could watch the kids?

Klin said...

The La Leche lady told me to quickly break the seal and then immediately stop nursing. I was supposed to do this each time the baby was hurting me. It was Kim, so she was a quick learner.

If I could speak baby, I'd tell Henry that mom's b00bs don't stretch. :( Ouch! Bring him up. I'll give him a bottle.:)

stephanie said...

oh robin, i'm so sorry! take abbie's offer. if he is without you all day, he would have to take a bottle eventually, right? good luck.

Blake & Andrea said...

well he's for sure old enough to take formula - meaning you have nursed a good amount of time and should feel good about it! Now that he has baby food in addition he is probably getting plenty! Totally leave Henry with Trent, just tell him there is NO other option... If he won't take him, I will! Ashlyn was Henry's age when I went to just morning and night nursing, she used to bite hard though so it didn't last long, plus after they like bottles the milk must come out faster and she didn't have to work as hard for it. love you - hang in there! call me

Mrs. Burns said...

You are an awsome mom!!! Good luck. It will work out, I promise.

Tori :) said...

See- you can't tell everyone to try nursing and then write that post. Ow, ow, ow. I am hurting for you!!
I say have an overnite GNO and he'd have to take a bottle. Come visit me!

Lauren said...

I have absolutely no advice. All I have to say is, Henry sounds a lot like my little brother Zach when he was a baby. Or aparently I was just like Henry according to my mom. Haha...that's awesome.

I am sorry you are hurting!

Brent & Joey said...

my youngest Kosten was exactly like that! some babies will just take mom for a ride, and totally just want the boob. In that case, its gotta be the dad all the way, or a relative...that's so Kosten! anyway...way cute family and fun to see your blog! i'll have to ad you as a friend on my list!

Emily said...

Have you tried sticking him in his pack n' play, just he and a sippy cup of formula? Stick them together for an hour when he's hungry, put in some earplugs and see what happens. Or, drop him off with some formula to Mom and say, "Help. I'll see you in 8 hours." I'm rootin' for you! Or next Saturday, tell Trent you have an all day thing, anything, and just leave for the day, take the other two kids if you're feeling nice and if not, he'll survive on baby food even if he won't take formula.

Liam's Mom - Gina said...

Loved Emily's advice. I hope you find a solution. Sorry you are hurting.

Nancy Face said...

Lauren pretty much said what I was going to say, haha! She speaks the truth! :)

Skye said...

After 7 months of nursing I was ready to have my body back, but Kire took a bottle well and never cared once I stopped, so I'm sorry.

Laura & Jimmy said...

I feel for you. I'm a advocate for nursing tooo, but sometimes it can be a PAIN... in every sense.